Today

Today I left the psych ward. I called the insurance company because I hit a parked car and I also lost some papers but later on found them. I feel good although sometimes my mood can turn on a dime.

3 day weekend

I had a 3 day weekend this weekend. I felt a bit meh. I went to IOWA with moms to gamble. The highlight was sporting kc and the royals winning. That helped keep my losses down. We drove back and it was nice to get my mom out of the house and my dad some space to paint and clean. It is Monday and I am just chilling and playing video games.

05/03/

The weekened was ok. I weigh 245 which is alot but I am not stressing. My dad took me on a monte drive and it was beautiful out. I have overtime this week which sucks.

05//01

It seeems like my meds are doiong better. Next week we will be doing overtime. That will be a challenge I am sure it will be fine. It seems like my meds helped calm me down so I didn't shove candy bars in my mouth. That is progress. I was able to go for a monte ride on Saturday. A bit borining but borning is good.

04/30

Going back and listening and reading old journal posts I really worked hard to pay off my car and tried to buildd that skill of loving delayed gratification. Yesterday I didn't get nervous when kyle came out to the floor which is progress I am nervous as fuck normally.

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving was ok. I went to the boat on Sunday and asked out the hottest waitress there. She was confused but I kept my status as a non-pussy up. I probably gained a shit ton of pounds this weekend. That sucks. Back to the grind monday

Going back in revisiting 19

11/16/19 I was able to go to weight watchers. They introduced a new program with different colors. I was able to stay sober. 11/17/2019 I hit on a girl with sweatpants. She was hot. I was able to use the good vibes I got after talk to sweatpants girl to not gamble and to not spend money. This would eventually lead me to pay off my car early. That was fun and hard work 11/17/19 I tried to use my VR set as much as possible. I kept getting sick and eventually I sold it. I really tried to get my money's worth out of it. 11/18/19 I got a new video card a rx 980 I am still using it. I forgot all about the money I put into that first computer. The card still works so I am getting some value out of that.