Your brain always tells you lies

My brain always wants to be safe. Whew you did that now you can quit because you are happy. Jamie once told me it like this. The trainers job in boxing is to tell the boxer that the canvas is not safe, it may feel safe, but you aren't safe. The safe place is to get up and keep fighting. Today my brain is like that. It doesn't want to push the limits of what I can do because it says "Whew it is Friday, time to kick it!" I won't believe that garbage, the knowledge that I have that "Just kicking it" is the wrong thing to do is what could make the difference between success and failure. When it all comes down to it I want pleasure or I want to avoid pain, so if I through out all the bullcrap excuses my mind makes up (I am tired, you are happy why ruin today?, what will people think, this person or that person sucks,) when I throw out all the excuses I see that there is a pain I don't want to deal with. I made a deal awhile ago that I would take on some pain to be successful. So today I will push my limits and grow and not listen to the crap my mind tells me. No Excuses play like a champion.

Thursday

Yesterday was pretty good. The thing I reinforced in my brain is that...my brain just wants me to survive. It doesn't care that I have hopes in dreams. If I have enough food and shelter it doesn't want to work harder and push and grow. It is my mission to I don't care what my brain tells me. I am working through this. I don't care how much time is left in the day. It doesn't matter, I have no sense of time, all I have is a sense of urgency to get tasks done and a sense of importance to do them correctly. I really try to keep focused on what I want in life. If trash comes into my brain I refocus on the task on hand, or gratitude, or breathing, or how awesome something is. I do have fun though, I was able to rest and watch some hoops yesterday. I haven't seen much of the NBA this year, but I am sure once football is over I will become obsessed basketball some more. Everything is pretty good, I am healthy and I really get excited about how much I can grow and push day in and day out. I really like to imagine what my legacy will be. I am sure it will be to grow and learn. Then apply what you learn and drop the stuff that doesn't work. I think it would be also don't make excuses period. Also don't listen to your brain, it wants you to quit. Listen to mp3's about your dreams, talk and write about what you want, you can control your thoughts if you write and really use energy to focus on the thoughts you want, so don't waste them. Also my legacy would also place importance on being easy on yourself. If you want to be good you cant waste energy on negative emotions. Sometimes you don't get what you want, and thank God things don't go as planned. Life would be boring that way.

Wednesday

Ben Mclemore is off the chain. He had a windmill dunk at the end of the San Jose State game that was one of those moments in American History where everyone stopped what they are doing and turned their attention to his dunking skills. After Speilburg is doing with his Lincoln move he has promised to to do a move about Ben Mclemore...it is going to called "WINDMILLS" it is about Ben Mclemore's love for windmill dunks. It is going to star Jamie Fox and is due out this march.

Back To basics block

My blog is very much the same crap over and over. That is mostly because I always want to keep it simple. Clean house, trust God, help others. If I was to start somewhere teaching a young man how to live I would make him do small tasks over and over and over until he wanted to not do it anymore, then I would force him to do it correctly and right until he passed out. Then after he woke up I would make him do the small task correctly and do it right some more. There are so many things in my life that I have now because I did the correct things correctly in the past. There are so many things that mean more than holding the trophy. It is doing small task correctly and growing in love for the small tasks. I go a walk on my break to keep the habit of working out going, I take time to really think hard the sacrifice I make to just keep that habit ANCHORED in my behavior. While other people are getting off their diet around this time I am making sacrifices to stick with a decent diet and walking. I am always willing to put in my blood sweat and tears to keep growing, and you know I really don't go through that much pain anymore...maybe some frustration here or there, but the key is I am willing to go through the pain, willing to go through the blood, sweat, and tears to keep going towards my goals in life. I also really try to love the process. The destination is never as sweet as the journey. So I do my best to love the journey. I have never been healthier, or happier than I am now. I let so much of my old crap go. It is hard to remember what a nervous wreck I was just a couple years ago. So I continue to grow and I continue to grow my love of the growing process..

KU game and T-Fitness

The KU game was closer than expected. Ben Mclemore continues to shine with highlight reel type dunks and great defense. Whithy had a triple double. I grew as a person by working together to have a good time. My friend Jason was going with a group of 3. Phil, Clay, and Peter. I had 2 tickets and I just wanted to go by myself because I was tired. Jason asks this fitness model to go with me. A female fitness model I might add. I will call her T-Fitness It is really rough having a fitness model on your arm for great KU tickets, but being the strong man I am I was able to work through tough times. Obviously when you have a great body...an ELITE body.. people just stare. So there I am with T-Fitness watching the game and she was cool. We both cheered and she was quiet which is weird for a woman during a sports game. After the game I was chatting up this girl with red hair. Her name was Katie. I always open up with red headed girls the same "Hey...how's that red hair working for you? Are you sunburned?" She laughed. I was telling her "Stay ready so you don't have to get ready" as I said that Scott Pollard walked by. Sweet. Katie was laughing but I think the security guards were getting mad because she was laughing and not paying attention to her job, before some of the hounds came over to break up me and Katie's fling..T-Fitness came out of the bathroom everyone left us alone and bounced. We had a parking pass to this game because of Phil. Jason hooked up me up and I will try not to bitch about life for awhile because it worked out well this day.

My Sports Update

Missouri Western won their game. I was at ease when I saw what kind of offense the other team played. The other team wanted to spread you out and throw the ball 50 times. I felt good about MO WEST being able to defend that because they are athletic. Our team on defense is more about quickness and ball skills than it is about tackling and stuffing the run. The Griffon QB was on fire and Mo West recievers have been catching everything. Northwest lost which means we play on the road. I would have liked to see one more home game with northwest. That atmosphere is bananas. MO Mavricks seem to be playing better. KU is good in basketball and I think Mizzou is as well, but they lost the game I was watching. Texans look good and Notre Dame is in the championship. Sporting KC hasn't made any moves and Jeremy Guthrie got signed by the royals. Royals need grienke, but the Dogers are going to make it rain money for him.

Saturday

Saturday was one of the better days that I have had for awhile. I was able to come home after thanksgiving and relax and try to focus on things that needed to be done. I was going to give back to poor people this year. PEROID END OF STORY. I had a vision of me really wanting to go after giving back the same way dumbasses go after the IPOD CRAP on black friday. It felt good giving back books and things to color to the families of military people. I also gave away some scarves and hats. That left me with a sort of high feeling know that some kid will cure cancer because he now has a toy story coloring book for christmas. After that I played video games. I really am trying to love video games more because I love video games. I just can't seem to get into them anymore. I am sure that if I think about them more I will start to love them more. At night Adam, Tressa, JP, JJ, Johnathan, and Suuze went out dancing and we had fun. I got a number from some girls just for fun. One thing I have going for when I go out is my "Give a care" meter is always down. I have been around enough people that some people may call me "awesome" some people might call me "AN FREAKING IDIOT" it doesn't really change my life. I still put my funyons in my mouth like everyone else does.

thanksgiving and other stuffing

I got my hair cut, my oil changed and my apartment picked up. I was ready for the big day of thanks. We had good food from Ryan's and I did a good job not stealing food in my pockets. In a perfect world I would have nacho cheese and catfish nuggets for consumption. I had a great time and all then NFL games were provided for me to watch all day. It was great to hang out with my mom. I don't see her enough. My mom and I even got together for a picture and I thought it turned out well. It was my nephews birthday. I bought him a video game and it felt good to be able to buy something for him. I feel good about having enough money, time and energy to buy things for people. I am going to cut the blog short today. I grew by completing tasks and going for a walk with my dad. It was important for me to get some sort of work out in so I grow in physical strength and not go backwards.

Off the Hook

Things have been off the hook crazy as of late. I am being of service and I am working. After that my friends hang out. Lately it has been a struggling to even get dinner in me before doing service work for local alcohol rehab places. I stock flyers and talk about where to get help. It has been awhile since I have had time for myself which is good and bad. It is good because I am being of maximum service to this world, but it is bad because I am tired and I do like to watch tv sometimes. The good thing is I still can carve out time to watch football with my dad or watch a half with Jason and Adam before I fall asleep. I have been focused on just not messing things up before thanksgiving. I have lots to be thankful and it can be a challenge to take the attitude of gratitude and to be of service to people. Sometimes when people for the 100th time ask me a question it can get on my nerves, but every time I am helpful to someone it is me growing. People are going to be asking me dumb questions every 5 minutes if I start my own company or become a manager, so I need to grow now to prepare for the day when I am in charge. I have seen how leaders really have to drop their ego and be self-less. You have to really love reviews and the process of getting better. That is one of my deals as well, even if my reviews are good are at work I have to LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE reviews. I have to be a nerd and really see where my area's of fault are so I can put some effort into fixing them. The final goal of course is to have the most fulfilling lifestyle possible. Also if I get good reviews I can get more boats and clothes. Everything has been good like I said, it is just trying to find time to just relax that has been a problem. It is all good. I am growing and I am getting better at life. I am getting tougher. I am not that tough to begin with. My regular state of mind would have me calling in sick to sit in my chair, I have to actively grow my toughness to say "You know what brain? You just want to survive...I WANT TO THRIVE" then I take my pain and I start being of service. If you can't tell yet I really need to talk, breath, write the words "BEING OF SERVICE" it is the only way for me to live. It helps me stop being tense and always consuming things. If I don't know what to do one sure way to get me going is asking the question to myself "Who can I help?" "How can I be of service." Alright have a good thanksgiving everyone.

Saturday and Sunday

Saturday was off the chain. I woke up after a long week of work and got my oil changed. Let me tell you something, I didn't want to get my oil changed, but I wanted to get my haircut and oil changed...whatever it takes to get things done before Thanksgiving. So I got that done. Then I went home grabbed my moms laptop that I fixed and headed to Mo West. Mo West won an epic game that I don't have the energy to get into. It was a 4 overtime game with neither of the teams being able to stop each other. The other team lost because the QB tripped. Awesome. It was great being able to sit on my ass for 5 hours screaming for a team that is awesome. Chiefs are garbage, Mavs lost but KING had a great goal. #2 won Nascar Championship and #24 won a race. Great year for NASCAR. This week is short and I don't know what to think about it. I am just going to stay positive and thankful.

21 things I learned from Jamie

Have to be present to win.
Students are like angels that God sent to you.
There is a God and she is pissed
You always hit what you are trying to avoid.
Even when things aren't ok...they are still ok.
You are not the "Cool dude"
Don't worry about woman..if you don't have aids they will find you.
Jobs=self-esteem.


I will think of more as they come along.

Friday

There is never a good time to do anything once you are elite. It never feels like it is a good time to hit the gym, start a project, talk to a client, talk to a girl, break up with a client, break up with a girl, on and on and on. There is always some B.S. excuse your mind makes up. I am tired, the timing is not right, I am not feeling it, I wish the situation is easier. The fact is you have to get your ass into the gym and work. You have to get out with a client and talk, you have to get out and get some. Talk! grow!! take on some pain!!! damnit!! Do something!! That is my talk for today. I try to jump in and take advantage of a situation that is given and if the opportunities aren't there well change the conditions so there is an opportunity there. The time is always now to take action. Ok whew I feel better. Today I planned on having a fun day with my brain. I was going to take it back to the start and just work up some emotions that were simple. I have water/air/shelter....That is really where I need to start to feel good. You find out what is really important if you are underwater for too long. Suddenly the fact that you aren't making enough money goes way the hell down and your basic need to breath goes to #1. I really worked on Thanking God that I am alive and healthy that I can breath eat and hell to have good toilet paper. That right there generates positive emotions. I really wanted to focus on the great season Sporting KC had. They are in the Champions league for winning the US OPEN CUP. Chiefs are going to get #1 draft pick. KU is looking like a Sweet 16 team with another Big Twelve title a real possibility. Mizzou looks good in basketball, the Mavs are skating around like a bag of balls and doing stuff, the Comets are doing stuff. I really wanted to get down and think think think think about the good things in my life. There has been so much I can't even really get to it. The fact that I can put down information that I want to surround myself with is such a blessing. If I can read, write, and talk about the things that make me feel good, then I will feel good. My Quality of life will be ELITE So that is what I did today. I still worked out and I still grew. I just took some of that focus on BEING THE #1 PERSON OF ALL TIME and put it into growing in gratitude. I think it was a real eye opener when I started to realize I need to forgive myself (again) and forgive other people. I have forgiven myself for lots of stuff over the years, but it was time to forgive myself again. The main thing that I forgave myself for is the fact that it still seems like people are more productive around me. It is ok. The important thing is my burning desire to get better. I can only go out and get some until I am tired, then push myself a bit further, then fall on the ground and pick myself up and get some more. I am just not there yet to the point where I can be productive for 9 or 10 hours in a row. Frankly I don't know if that is something I want. I do know that I want to have a great lifestyle full of wealth and choices. It seems like the people who have choices also have the ability to work long hours with great focus. It is all good though. I am growng, willing to take on some pain, willing to put a smile on my face and be humble. I will get there. I have faith that the natural laws of life will work. Work hard fix your mistakes and success will come your way. This weekend I hope success comes Mo Wests way...they have to win this next game or they will be hitting cosmic bowling at King Hill lanes really early! Alright wrap up time. I grew 1% today in being thankful for the basics. I grew in forgiveness for myself and others. I was able to work up positive emotions and that felt good. Have a good Friday.

Thursday

Thursday was a day I decided to take a warm bath in self-pity. I made it to noon and I started thinking "What is the point?" "I am so far away from my dreams" "I wish I had more time" I know not to stay in that bath too long. No one elite or successful stays in that mood for long. I started to get some good vibes by stating my mission statement " I am here to be of service. I am getting better everyday in every way " I flap my arms and I raise my voice when I am saying this to get some emotion going. I went back to warm and made it through. That is what I do. I grew today just loving myself alittle bit more. I have to hand it to myself sometimes. I can see the bullcrap way I think sometimes and I change it. It is often harder to change my thinking or my attitude than it is to do work or handle people. So all and all it was a pretty good day of growth. I went for a walk after work as well. So I didn't do any heavy lifting, but I may have grown physically by 1% as well. Everyday I try to choose something to learn, something to grown in...today was I love myself just a little bit more. After work I went to Adam and Jason brought treats and coffee. Lucky me. KU won and everyone was joyous. Even Bill Self's Hairpiece got excited. I am lucky these days to have some people to hang out with after work. When I first moved to KC I had no one down here. Now I got V-Foundation, The Birdman Adam, Jason, Cody, Kris Von German, and also the slores at Black Dog!

Nba2k12

I was able to play a game of this NBA game before work. My player is getting better. I got 4 points against the NETS and Kim Kardashions love Forward whatever his name is! I am on the Knicks. Carmello plays no defense. This game is amazingly real.

Enthusiasm

Today I was trudging through the day once again. My head was thinking good thoughts. I was thinking how it is nice that I have a roof over my head, how I have something to eat, and how I am loved. I just have been grinding it out of late. My brain won't stay in pain too long, it will go through a list of emotions and thoughts to get out of pain. I finally found something that I was missing. I need to be more enthusiastic about my progress in life and my growth as a person. I see what hard work and determination will do for you all around me, I don't need to be so glum. So I did what I could to make my body language better. I also researched and spoke about it to people. So I made command for me tomorrow morning and a prayer. I will be more Enthusiastic about my day because my life is really good. I know I am getting better as a person by the way I am praying and acting of late. I am really trying to be of service, now I need to focus on being Enthusiastic about the whole process and then the process will be more fun. The main way I can change my state of mind into enthusiasm is to make hand movements and to really give myself to whatever I am doing. This topic is complicated and I think I am the only one that knows what I am talking about. I brought it up and everyone seemed pretty glum that I talked too, they just droned about how they worked and I was like. THERE HAS TO BE A BETTER WAY TO DO THIS. More enthusiasm has to be attained to keep the passion growing in whatever you are doing.

Moving forward.

I am proud that I played high school football. That was lots of work! Jason Gregory was a man beast! Graduating from college was very hard as was keeping a job at Blockbuster. I am also proud that I took steps to go to Ireland, Vegas, Spring Training, and other things. It has been an awesome ride in sobriety so far as well. I am proud to help the addict section of the population and it is always rewarding to help people on that first step to recovery. Now to what I want out of life. The first thing is I want to grow spiritually, mentally, and get stronger physically. I can grow small each day and it really adds up. I want to travel to New York. Washington DC. Germany and Australia. I also would like to go to England and punch Hugh Grant in the mouth. I really would love to invest more time helping people, and even more time getting people off their butts and into the seats of sporting events. I look forward to really seeing Sporting KC next year to see where they go from here and I want to watch as much Nascar as possible. I like the Mavricks and I hope to continue to go to games. I want to see more KU games and I want to play video games. It sounds really weird to waste more time on video games, but they have always been a passion of mind. In fact Kris Von German came over the other day and we played Fifa 2012. It was rewarding and it is a good way to connect to my fellow gaming nerds. I wouldn't mind getting a blu-ray player or a ps3 one of these days. Oh that brings me to another thing I am proud of. My 40 inch TV WITH SOUNDBAR AND SUBWOOFER. It sounds ok and looks great in HD. I am proud to have really put in effort with my grandparents and with my mentor Jamie. I really learned alot. I really leared alot from "The Elder Statesmen" we have real-talk all the time about giving back and how just a small amount of time with kids is rewarding. I have to work really hard to link pleasure with hanging out with kids. Kids are so damn annoying that I can barely stand them, but I know I really have to rearrange my brain to somehow get me to enjoy them. It is important to enjoy kids because what is the point of me going through the pain if I can't teach the next generation ANYTHING. I really would like to be of service and never grow. On my last day on earth I still want to get better moment by moment. I kind of beat ideas into the ground on this blog. I don't think you can write, talk, or think about where you are headed. I have a clear focus on what I want out of life and I feel that the more I write and talk about it the more it gets imprinted in my mind and Sub-Mind.

Freak out or be calm and rational.

My 1% growth came today at the beginning. I am awesome at being stupid sometimes. I took my phone charger at work but left it hanging out one of my doors. I am lucky that the charger part didn't scratch the jeep. The charger part was destroyed though. So I get to work..I had a minor freak out because now I have to decide when I am going to get this charger back. I can't be out of a phone because I have too many cute cat videos to look at! So my 1% growth today came from staying calm. Deciding not to use all my battery life on cat videos until I could get a new charger proved valuable. The rest of work was just a struggle. I have a tough time staying motivated. My main motivation is it would be a pain in the ass being out of a job. I am doing a better job at not procrastination. I used to just wait until the final minute to get everything done, but lately I realize that every minute every minute inch counts. It is a dog eat dog world out there and I am wearing milkbone underwear. So the last couple days have really kicked my ass but I have did my best to really grow, accept some pain, not bitch, and get it my all.... I am pretty happy with myself. After work I went over to Adam and Johns house and we watched KU lose. It was crappy but it looks like Mizzou is going to be a good basketball team. So that is great. I am looking forward already to putting this year behind me. I know I have planted the seeds of hard work and I am going to be harvesting the best days of my life going forward. I just really have to keep it simple...be of service, go the extra mile, work as hard as you can and then alittle bit more, and grow as a person.

Monday

Monday I was presented the fact that a person that worked with me had decided that he didn't want to work for the company anymore. It presented me the challenge to pick up some of his work and to really do the most with the situation. When nature gives you a great day to plant nachos. You have to really plant a lot of tortilla chips of success in the ground so once harvest season comes around you have plenty of nachos bell grandes to share with everyone. So I asked God for help to do the most of the situation, step up, and really take advantage of the opportunity to show my worth. If there is a thing I do ok at it is showing up. So I made it through the day and it wasn't good. I ate a bunch of crap just trying to feel good enough to make it through the hours. After work I felt so warn out and my brain was thinking good thoughts, I was just out of gas. I was able to be somewhat of service talking to people and going over to Adams to watch the Chiefs game. There are a couple people out there today that are lost. They aren't my friends, but I know them...and I know what they are going through. So I have gratitude I don't have fear or lack of direction like these folks. What good is having all the toys you want if you have too much fear and depression to use them. I am not depressed at all. I have the knowledge that yesterday I grew in 1% and I also grew in stick-to-it-ness. People don't go the first mile in this world let alone the extra mile, but I am willing to go through that extra mile and take some pain. In the end I know God will provide me more than enough nachos for me.

KU plays tonight, Chiefs and Mavs Suck. Sporting KC of season, Griffons are doing awesome, haven't seen Mizzou play yet, Penguins are locked out.

Who has two thumbs and wants to grow today? This guy!

Saturday

Saturday was off the chain. Missouri Western beat Northwest, I hope finally one of my teams, and frankly the only team I support with monster dollars...maybe finally this team is going to turn into a title contender? So I was happy about that. I then went to the Missouri Mavericks game and they bounced back and won 5-2. They seem to be slow as crap but whatever. I then went out with Adam and Jason and pushed myself to talk and crack jokes all night. Of course I talked to the hottest girls. The line of the night was when this girl wasn't being nice I told her "Don't worry, when I see you again you will get a chance to make make a better impression." She laughed... It is important for me to get out and talk to people instead of just sitting inside. That way when I work I am constantly getting better at communicating. It is hard for me to not talk all weekend..not improve on meeting people, then get out in the business world and just get the ball rolling. I like to be able to put it in mind to get better at speaking slowly and clearly. So my 1% improvement yesterday came from communication, courage to speak to people, and 1% more fun for watching Mo West beat that ass.

Friday

Friday I just chilled. I thought about going out and getting my 1% growth in by hitting on girls, but I decided I didn't need to be out when I was tired and grumpy. Whenever I am out and grumpy I have a habit of insulting a girl and calling her a slore. I watched three episodes of Boardwalk Empire. There was plenty of nudity and explosions. Northwest vs. Missouri Western is this weekend. It will be a barn burner.

1% more each day

I try to go 1% more each day so I can keep growing. The easiest is to walk further each day, or try to eat 1% more veggies...the hardest is to humble yourself 1% each day. I would like to touch on how big yesterday was. Sporting KC lost but it was an awesome night for the crowd, my friends, and my mom and dad were out there. I am a lucky man that my family can make it out to sports events with me. It is a simple way to do family time and get my sports time in. Two birds with one stone. That leads me to a story with Byrd with two keystones..but we won't go into that right now. So it was nice that all my friends were out at the game and it wasn't a total crap night weather wise. Also the crowd was top class. Everyone I think got home safely. I try my best to get people out of their house and out to experience things that I find awesome. People need push to get out of their comfort zone. Christmas is coming up and I vow to take pictures of things I donate or canned goods I give away. I will not lie, it feels good to give away things and it feels even better to brag about them. I suppose in time I won't brag about what I give or even tell anyone, but I am not there spiritually yet. I found one hole in my game today. I love to wallow in my own shit sometimes. It comes when I don't want to work, get a haircut, go to the DMV. I need to let that crap go and call someone and change my state. I like to hold on to that pity because it feels good to complain and take a warm bath in that emotion. That will keep me from leading the life I want though because I won't take action and won't give out a vibe that will lead to success. Negative vibes = negative results period.

Wednesday

Wednesday was fun. I went to work then out to Chili's to see the worst service of all time! I had a great job learning about how far the Chili's is from being a good place to eat out at the legends. Sporting KC then played after that and won the game, but lost the series. Next year have to get more strikers. Mom, Dad, V-Foundation, Byrdman, Me, Matt, Adam were all at the game. Felt good to have family and friends out there having a good time.

Tuesday

Tuesday was ok. I started the day like...ugh I am going to have to listen to idiots all day about election, but that is why God invented a zune...so I can blast Better than Ezra on it all day. I did the same commands and prayers I always do. "Everyday in everyway I get better and better" I am big on not thinking in negative terms. Like I try not to say to myself "Please don't screw up" cause then I always screw up. I use self talk like "Give me the right action" or something positive. Anyway my lesson for myself today is that if I constantly use the word FEAR my brain gets fear somehow. So I came up with "Give me courage" or "God give me courage" it seems to work a bit for me. What I really was needing courage was for is just to give more. There are plenty of harvesters and other things around that I am afraid if I give too much I will have givers remorse. I almost have givers remorse for buying some Jayhawk tickets yesterday for some of my friends. I have this overwhelming passion for giving people canned goods and trying to get people off their asses and out to sporting events. I think sports events are a good place for everyone to meet and talk. There is just something easier about meeting all your friends at a game than going to someones house. I tried my best to get my friends out to the KU game on Monday and I thought at first they weren't there, they were evidently there but I think they forgot about me or whatever. Oh well the action was still the same. I am supporting student athletes and supporting people getting off their asses and out to the game. I am also supported my work I thik because they had discounted tickets to the KU game.


The Byrdman and I had a great time at the KU game. I saw my nephew and he was off the chain. I saw my sister and ben. My sister was awesome enough to drop us off at the game. KU looked sloppier than Marv Alberts tupee, but it is all good. Bill Self will get them going. What a blessing it is to have The Byrdman up here. I always have this idea in my mind that I am going to be an elite player, and in some ways it is already true. I already go to the best concerts and have the best seats to all the sports events I want. I really need to travel and get the Black Infinati with black wheels that I want as well. I figured out why I want to be elite style wealthy. I just want to be significant. The good news is there are other ways to be significant other than just being wealthy, being wealthy just happens to be the most fun to play with in my mind. Tomorrow is SKC. I hope they win but no matter what we are US OPEN CUP CHAMPS and they had a kick ass year. #Carefree where ever we maybe. I have no idea what the future holds and it looks like ticket sales may already be down *GASP* oh well I am sporting til I die.

Random Prayer of the day

I found this prayer and I thought it made more sense to me. "God I pray for not riches, but more wisdom on how to use the gifts you have given me." this makes sense to me just because if you gain wisdom and you have in your mind the riches you already have. Everyday just seems to get better and better. I went to the coffee house tonight with JJ and Adam, and Ryan. I was nice to Ryan and got him involved with some talks about scary movies and video games. I need to be better to all my friends. 1% better every day to everyone and hell they may even buy me nachos one day. Tomorrow is KU against Washburn. It should be a fine game for KU to kick ass. I think The Byrdman will be going with me. Some other guys will probably be there as well. It will go well and I am sure to grow and learn alot about KU and myself.

Sunday

Without The Chiefs to ruin my day I turned my hope to Sporting KC. They went on to suck as well. I hope we can turn it around when we play on Wednesday, but Houston just knows how to play SKC. Need a huge effort from the home crowd. I went out to livestrong sporting park to support the team and I was proud of myself for going out there. I wanted to sit on my ass, but decided that I need to be out there since they have played well this year. GO SKC!!! The rest of the day and night was pretty good. I cleaned and I watched nascar. Jimmy Johnson is awesome. I keep pushing myself in all area's of my life and I try to get 1 percent better each day. I keep on writing in my journal and I can see progress each day. Each day I try to love more, try to have more fun, and try to have more patience. Seems to be working. I have been very blessed in my life and I am excited for what the future brings.

Saturday

I drove back to St. Joseph this weekend. My parents worked really hard to get the home they live in up to date. I was in awe of how much work they put in to the place and it looks great. I think there is something about replacing carpet and other items that takes some stress of of your mind and your body. A new carpet and a new couch is just easier on the eyes and places a positive feeling in your belly. So good for them mom and dad you've earned greatness! Speaking of greatness Mo West is doing awesome this year. They are my team and I think their QB is awesome sauce. He is big, fast, and can throw the pigskin. Michael Hill their RB is having a big year. NFL Player Greg Zurlien was also at the game and gave the team a boost. After that game I drove to watch the Mavericks play Hockey. It was a packed house and they didn't play well. There was a great Atmosphere in that game. I then drove home and was warn out. I spent 4 hours in the Jeep total that day. I am looking forward to seeing Mo West play some more, seeing the Mavs some more, and maybe checking out the Mo-West basketball team. A great day for a sports fan like me for sure. I also got to watch a bit of Notre Dame. They are pulling out tight wins this year that is for sure.

The Chiefs are awesome and a 50 cent reference

Today I woke up like at 6 to be at work because we are busy with the storms out east. I thought about the 50 cent quote. Someone once asked 50 cent... YO 50 when do you sleep? He replied "Sleep? Sleep are for those people that are broke!" So anyway I am not broke and nor do I attend to ever be broke. What I do plan on doing is putting some money in savings accounts, maybe a cd, then long range investments and of course my 401k and maybe a roth IRA. I am very focused on making the most out of my hard earned money. I have fun just thinking about money and buying things. Napolean Hill once said that if you are feeling depressed write out your perfect house. My perfect house isn't a house at all, it is a nicely furnished apartment down on Westport, one that I could go see the action with the ladies and the bro's doing their thing down there. Plus I love broadway Cafe coffee. Other than my Jeep I would also like a black wheels on a black infiniti sports car, I would like the largest TV with decent sound, maybe a ps3. I also like SPORTING KC-ROYALS-KU-CHIEFS-MAVERICK tickets. I would also like to go to all my favorite concerts. So there is tons of stuff that I can spend my money on. Hell I might even go see you MR 50 CENT. The Chiefs suck really bad. This weekend I get to go watch Mo West, they are playing awesome this year. I have been talking to a girl I like a bit, we will see where that goes. I might even write more about it because it is such a long range shot that I mine as well have fun with it. I will leave you with this final thought. If you get better 1% a day on something at the end of the year you will be 100000% better at everything. This is a fact.

Deep thoughts

Everyday in everyway I am getting better and better. I eat funyons more awesome everyday!