Thursday

This week has been a pile of poop. I have slept a ton because I have a fever. I can barely make it through work because something is going on with me. I am going to try some counseling and get my meds adjusted ASAP so I can make it through a day of work without feeling overwhelmed or just feeling down. I am going to try to read some on my day off and that will make me feel better.

Monday

Monday I woke up. I had some nightmares yesterday which kind of threw my sleep off. I woke up and I was in a bla mood. Pretty standard for a Monday. I really didn't want to work. It took about three hours of work to get settled in and start helping people with credit cards instead of just fighting it. It really just takes me to say the serenity prayer over and over and then I have to say to myself "Listen buddy, you aren't going anywhere, just settle in and do work" After work I went to AA and went to visit Raymond. It was nice not showing up to work being hungover and gross and it is nice not feeling crappy and full of shame. I go back to A.A. because not drinking beats drinking. In fact I rarely come in contact with a full out drunk idiot because I don't hang out in bars, but I did in fact come in contact with a drunk idiot the other day. I thanked God for plenty of support with A.A. and doctors. Tomorrow I think will be better. I took a day off from my medicine because my sister was coming into town and I didn't plan my medicine schedule around that. I think that once I get back on my meds and get some sleep Tuesday will be better. My friend Keith sent me a text message. Also the fights this weekend look to be good.

The Weekend and Randoms

On Thursday I had a lunch date with a lady friend. As usual my advice for dates of any kind is not be a jackass. Show up on time. Stand and be nice. Don't talk and don't mess things up. As I have witnessed many of times over the years ladies will throw down their napkins and leave you at any one of my various faults so I don't get all upset if that happens. I did get a bagal and I was like where the hell is my jam. The jam was put in a sauce bowl like ketchup or bbq sauce. I was thrown for a loop. The date was good. I went to work. I bowled yesterday and I bowled my best. This was nice because I worked hard on my game and finally I made some 10 pins that I had worked so hard to make. Tomorrow is the championships and go pats.

Weekend

Weekend was good. TJ DILLISHAW WAS ROBBED. My mom bowled well. I was pretty sick, but survived. It was very cold out. The chiefs lost, which was not a surprise. Tom Brady's release is quicker than me racing to the golden biscuits at Wyatts Cafe.

Video Blog 1/12

Stuff

I have been going back and forth through medical insurance, my doctor, and work to get things straightened out with my fmla. It sucks. I also am sick which sucks. The chiefs do not suck. Their defense is boss pimp. The chiefs defense is bomb.

1-9-26

always find out what people want. You provide what people want and your needs will be met.

1-8-16

Business is all about finding out what people want and supplying that to them at a giant price! Today I went and got my tags for my car. My tags now read "paper" Like #getmoney and paper chaser. I was able to go to the doctor today. He didn't up my meds or do anything crazy. I have to call on Monday to see if my FLMA was approved. Today I am just going to do some reading and enjoy my night.

January 8th video blog

why is the camera so close you ask? It is like 7:30 AM.

If you are unhappy

I thought it was funny because there was several people who switched jobs thinking it was going to make them happier. In general. If you are unhappy inside..you are going to be unhappy at your job, with or without a relationship, and with your life in general. I have been feeling a bit better. I had to work through so much crap with my doctor, AA, work, on the inside I have faith. I have faith because I have a white hot burning desire to be successful and to have a purpose with my life. I read "Think and Grow rich" most days and that book talks about how it starts with a burning hot desire..then that goes to faith or a vision...then to action...then back to the white hot burning desire.


when your life sucks this prayer helps LOL I pray that I may see God's meaning in my life. I pray that I may gladly accept what God has to teach me.

Thursday

Trying to get FLMA has been a complete pain in the ass. Keep working keep grinding. I went to AA yesterday. Once again keep working...keep grinding. Everything seems to suck, but as long as I keep learning and getting better each day my life gets better. It was fun to flex a little bit for Byrdman. I don't make much money, but I still like to flex with cars, rap music, buffalo wild wings, and KU tickets. I have been walking but not grinding on the diet. My main focus has been getting FMLA, getting through work, going to AA, and just generally not screwing up stuff. E-40, Kendrick Lamar, Artic Monkeys. That is what I have been listening too.

Reading Tony Robbins book part 1

Trivia winners

Yesterday I went out for trivia. We won trivia. I know my african amaerican oscar winners and my sports trivia.

Date

So I had this breakfast date today. Total pain in the ass downtown. I shaved and I didn't dress or talk like a jackass. Yay me. I did my part. No1cur what happens next.

1/3

Yesterday I went over to Engineer Matts. He gave me some hot stock tips. Mainly we talked about how to make so much money you can live off of the interest. It definitely caught my "interest." The main fight yesterday was really good. The fights have been lately been awesome under cards but the main cards were crappy. Yesterday the main fight was good with Ruthless Robbie Lawler coming away with a victory.



that is me talking about some of my goals.

I hung out with Jason and Adam and we talked about how awesome the chiefs are! I got my haircut today and I filled up my car with gas. I was about ready to get my car washed but the automatic car wash was all jacked up. The guy in-front of me got one half-assed car wash. I am grateful it wasn't me.