Character Defect 1 I love emotions

On my long journey to give up my addictions to different substances, mostly funyons. I now know what I am attracted to, and that I need to be steadfest if I feel this attraction to write it out and look at it, pray on it. I love girls with problems, can't pay your rent....ohhh I love you even more. It gives me a chance to get up in the morning and fix other peoples problems, which are easier to fix than mine. It doesn't have to be a woman, it could also be a dude down on his luck, or maybe a dirty puppy...ok I would take care of the puppy. Thinking about this gives me a good guidelines of what I really want to have in my life and stick to those guidelines. It is an easy to set guidelines what you want, but takes extreme amount of pain to deal with it. If Zooey Dechnelle walked into today and told me that she loves my blogs and she wants my as a boyfriend, but then started doing drugs and throwing up cake in my bathroom I would have to pray and really think, do I want this chick in my life? Is she what I really want or am I just addicted to emotions because I am bored at this moment. Just like my answer is to eat or booze when I am bored or unconfortable or know I can feel better instantly, I am always attracted to the wild side of life because it is instant awesomeness. I love instant entertainment or emotions, that is why you see me with a laptop surfing the web, I don't have time to lug around a book. It's much easier to reconize my defects and not act emotional so when the time comes I can kick Zooey out she goes back to the lead singer to death cab for cutie and I enjoy the chiefs playoff win.