Thursday Friday and Saturday morning

Thursday I mostly just chilled. I can't remember what I did, I did have some nausua because I cut my calories down to 1200 and I wasn't used to that. I haven't talked much diet on here much because I have been trying to replace fries with veggies and stuff like that, but the hard core discipline went out the window when I went on a stretch of work and Alcohol Recovery stuff. There were days in the stretch of Feb-March that the only joy was going to come by eating bag of chips. I got through the stuff I needed to get done, now I feel great and can (one day at a time) keep on a stricter diet.

Friday.. Friday I woke up and prayed, I ususally pray when my mind just starts to get out of control (which it did) It gets out of control and obsesses about the dumbest shit. Like... "What am I going to do after work" The fact remains most days after work there could be a helicopter waiting to fly me to Eric Hosmers house and I would have to pass because I am stressed and tired. Ok back to my Friday, I worked and I felt pretty good. I came home and I bought some new clothes for the summer. I am really trying to look decent when I can. I went out to a UMKC womans soccer match and enjoyed the night. The girl I barely knew was actually pretty good, both teams were way better than I thought. I am used to seeing girls kick a ball 10 yards in kickball, there were a couple free kicks that rang off the post from 50 yards out.I said hi to the hot soccer player, and she didn't give me a dirty look or anything, "she said Hi and thanks for coming", I did a good job in not being a wuss-bag. She was around her family and I think her boyfriend. I still got in there and told her good game in a friendly manor. I still maintained my mindset for the night that I was there to watch soccer and not focus in on some blonde slam-piece that are a dime a dozen down at the power and light. *Scene transition*

I then went down to power and light and met up with "The Elder Statesman" and Byrdman. I began to talk to anyone and everyone. There are 25 girls down there that are flat out tens. Not cute girls, flat out playboy models. Now this isn't even counting the Hired Guns (the people working there). I opened up some of them with some non-sense and I wasn't nervous even with their giant ape boyfriends there. I made sure to present a fun vibe and it was all good. I went up to them (Now granted these girls don't get approached much because they are 10's and people are scurred) and asked "Are you girls from America?" When they responded yes..they asked me where I was from. I would say "I am not from around here as you can tell from my accent!" It got some laughs and chuckles but they soon got back what they were doing. I did talk to a group of Dental Hygentists who were on business trip and they had girls that were talking to us and partying. I also talked to a bachlorette party and there was a girl that liked me, but I felt like I was going into "Interview" mode with her just firing questions, so I wished her a good night and if I saw her again and she chased then you know it would have been "on" So overall I had a great time I just went out, had no fear, I can really tell at work that I am getting better at reading people and communicating better because I talked to so many people. Going out meeting men and meeting woman has really made me aware of how poorly I come across sometimes. I really strive to not mumble, to speak up, and to pay attention to what people are talking about. Not just the words but the tone. When I can match the tone of someone elses voice, I put them at ease for the most part.