Monday

I love working nights because I can sleep all day long. This makes my quality of life better because I hate being tired. It ruins everything. I went to an AA meeting today, I went for a walk, I went to Hy-Vee. I was able to do laundry on Sunday. I also gave my mom money to go to the casino. That made me feel good. I am always broke, but I had 20 dollars for some reason (Probably because I haven't been to a sporting or royals game in two months.) So I gave my mom money and I went to an AA meeting on Monday. There was some rough looking guys at the AA meeting. It reminds me why I will put up with some days of not having fun so I don't go back to partying. The guys had skinned up legs and face, and looked like death. That kind of look tears families up and it just is a general bummer. I know how easy it can be to self medicate and drink a ton of whiskey to feel better, but there is a price to pay. The price to pay is looking like crap, being in legal troubles, and being a general burden on people. So today I just want to acknowledge that I was sober and able to go for a walk and not have scrapes all up and down my face and body. Having scrapes up and down your body makes everyone else feel uncomfortable..