Putting down stuff in my mp3

I was putting some notes in my MP3 player. I was finding myself being thankful for some rejections from girls and jobs over the years. It forced me to find and seek joy within myself instead of looking towards outside sources to be happy. I don't know if there is a heaven or not but the people who think there is a heaven have a greater sense of joy in the moment. Believing in a heaven in the afterlife also helps you give more and be less selfish with also helps with deep level self-confidence. I gave some more money towards AA today and towards the salvation army because I really am stating to think about being Judged by God. I know that I try to be a good son and a good brother. I can always get better at giving money and things to other people. That also helps with me feeling good which in turns helps with my diet and helps me be happy to work out.