Monday

Monday I woke up. I had some nightmares yesterday which kind of threw my sleep off. I woke up and I was in a bla mood. Pretty standard for a Monday. I really didn't want to work. It took about three hours of work to get settled in and start helping people with credit cards instead of just fighting it. It really just takes me to say the serenity prayer over and over and then I have to say to myself "Listen buddy, you aren't going anywhere, just settle in and do work" After work I went to AA and went to visit Raymond. It was nice not showing up to work being hungover and gross and it is nice not feeling crappy and full of shame. I go back to A.A. because not drinking beats drinking. In fact I rarely come in contact with a full out drunk idiot because I don't hang out in bars, but I did in fact come in contact with a drunk idiot the other day. I thanked God for plenty of support with A.A. and doctors. Tomorrow I think will be better. I took a day off from my medicine because my sister was coming into town and I didn't plan my medicine schedule around that. I think that once I get back on my meds and get some sleep Tuesday will be better. My friend Keith sent me a text message. Also the fights this weekend look to be good.