Going over old notes

Going over some of my old journals what stood out is a couple techniques. One is if you don't understand what God is you can assign God-like powers to random stuff. Like this chair over here. I can put in lots of work and let the chair decide the results. Some how psychology it seems to work for me. Anything that makes my brain relinquish control is good. It takes fear out of my day to day life. I really want 4 video games bad right now. NBA 2k17 Nascar Revolution Fifa 2017. I will probably get some of those in the future. One of the questions always pondered in my journals is "What gets my out of bed early and makes me stay up late" for me it is the chance to read, reflect, and polish skills. I think it is interesting how you can learn new skills and learn and develop certain area's of your life. How I can be good at public speaking, then good at a forklift, and then good at networking. I also am really into sacrificing todays pleasure for tomorrows fortune. I know I will get those video games when the time is right. Right now If I buy them I will have buyers remorse.