Thursday

Thursday was a day I decided to take a warm bath in self-pity. I made it to noon and I started thinking "What is the point?" "I am so far away from my dreams" "I wish I had more time" I know not to stay in that bath too long. No one elite or successful stays in that mood for long. I started to get some good vibes by stating my mission statement " I am here to be of service. I am getting better everyday in every way " I flap my arms and I raise my voice when I am saying this to get some emotion going. I went back to warm and made it through. That is what I do. I grew today just loving myself alittle bit more. I have to hand it to myself sometimes. I can see the bullcrap way I think sometimes and I change it. It is often harder to change my thinking or my attitude than it is to do work or handle people. So all and all it was a pretty good day of growth. I went for a walk after work as well. So I didn't do any heavy lifting, but I may have grown physically by 1% as well. Everyday I try to choose something to learn, something to grown in...today was I love myself just a little bit more. After work I went to Adam and Jason brought treats and coffee. Lucky me. KU won and everyone was joyous. Even Bill Self's Hairpiece got excited. I am lucky these days to have some people to hang out with after work. When I first moved to KC I had no one down here. Now I got V-Foundation, The Birdman Adam, Jason, Cody, Kris Von German, and also the slores at Black Dog!