10/05

Over the weekend my dad and I went to a car show on Sunday. It was a a beautiful day out and it worked out nicely that the chiefs did not play. On Saturday Paulido had a big game scoring 2 goals for sporting kc. Overall I am doing pretty good. Last week I was able to get a lot of shit done and I am sure this week will be the same. If you are not on drugs or drinking all day you are going to get shit done. I lost a couple pounds and was down to 219 when I weighed in at weight watchers but I was hungry as fuck all weekend. I ate a fuck ton of food but I don't think it was as bad as it could have been. Ususally I smashed like entire packages of oreo's. I had a tenderloin 11 bags of popcorn and some funyons. Funyons are suprisingly not many calories. I woke up on monday morning and I had a dream about molly which sucks I am trying to move past that, but I know God is giving me an easier life without bullshit girls and kids and all that. Another girl got married that totally shut my ass down and blocked me on IG and I didn't have any emotion for that other than holy shit I think only a few people like me and my family is most of them. Man I would just like some approval for certain girls just to even talk to me but they don't because they know I am an emotional black hole that falls in love with any girl that talk them so they move on. I was able to watch the sunday night game yesterday. It was close.