This is going to be an embarrassing post, but here we go.

Alright. So the main pain in my life has always been girls in general. That was my first real drug of choice. I have been doing better lately just living my life and not getting all wrapped up in a few girls that I like. It is just not a skill I have had to step back and realize "that this is just a phase" and we will work with it. I instead make myself feel miserable and always facebook follow ladies I like and torture myself. I know now when I step back that if I take actions like hang around girls I have feelings for, but they don't like me back, that is going to 100% hurt my mental health. I can save this pain if I take action by getting out of that situation. If I don't I don't beat myself up, I just have to reconize that this was caused me by me. I don't take anything too serious anymore so it's all good. I just wish that I could help some young guy out there realize that there are specific actions you can take to make yourself happy, and specific actions you can take to make yourself miserable. If you choose to hover around a girl that doesn't like you back...well welcome to the jungle baby. enjoy being miserable.