Sporting KC and other stuff.

I haven't really thought about Sporting KC that much. I am at brewbakers right now getting ready to get the season started. Yesterday sucked. I was able to go for walk, but I was sick to my stomach all day and work ran long into the night. I really struggle to have fun in my time off work unless it involves sports or gambling. I am ready for the Royals and Sporting KC to come back so I have a routine and a place to go that isn't AA, black dog, or Hollywood casino. Overall I think I am doing pretty good. I asked my boss to go over some information with me yesterday I am reading the book "Mastery" and it inspired me to pick my bosses brain to get better. That is progress. I show lots of progress in my actions as a man, but it rarely translates into me feeling good or O.K. I had big anxiety this morning and I just had to pray and get through it. I think it is cool I at least pray.before.meals now. I am making an effort to really think how easy life is for me.