Joel Embid and Austrian open.

Joel Embid is a great center. 7-foot big men who can move well are few and far between. I have tried to keep up with the Aussie open. I hope Federer can win a couple matches, but the word on the street is he will be bounced like a pogo-ball early on.

I am having deja-vu today. I washed my jeep. It still had some crap on it because it was salty. I bought food. Went to a meeting. I plan on talking to Jason more because I need to be more chatty for the new job and job meetings. I played a crapload of an old video game "Grand Theft Auto San Andreas" The game and map are huge. My old xbox games play in xbox 360 system and sometimes I play them. I am going real deep into this game because I have time. It is quite enjoyable and I am playing with no cheats. So every time I get a new gun in the game it actually means something because I am playing without cheats.

I have been watching this guy named Elliot Hulse who has his mind game figured out. He is ripped, followed by a bunch of people, he really preaches to invest in your character and your strength first. So did Jesus..he quotes Jesus a bunch. Anyway I don't spend all my time playing video games. I watch Elliot Hulse videos and I have been doing a meditation called The Silva Method One of my buddies Travis has been working on meditation, so I figure I might try to connect more. I really have a way better life because I have worked on clearing my mind and I have worked on "staying where my hands are" that means just stay within today and be present. Sometimes especially when I wake up my mind tries to put me in fear. I have to go through a process to figure out what I am scared of and I take action and do some prayers to work through it. I try to never let fear of what people think of me, or fear of the unknown cripple my ability to take action.

I was able to go for a 2 mile walk today. It was very enjoyable. The air was cold and crisp. I have worked my ass off to make sure I have a decent routine going. I have a good route to walk that I have spent hours and I am comfortable with. I realized today how much pain there is adjusting to a new place to walk. So many unknown variables for a new route. How loud is it, are the sidewalks sucky...luckily I realized in the moment that I have been blessed with an insane amount of time on the same walking pattern and that makes it more enjoyable.


Jason makes me proud sometimes. I am thankful he provides delicious coffee, deer meat, and our front room looks good. He asked a girl out the other day and it is nice to be around someone with some balls. He also does lots of service work and he has come along way in a couple years. Like I was telling him earlier....it's mostly about life skills at this point. I feel like God put the new job in my life so I can cultivate my skills in opening people up in conversation and of course I need to get used to being under more stress. I understand it is all apart of my progress and life is practice. Right now I am in fear sometimes, but not stressed like I was in college, or my first couple years in a real job, or not even close towards the end of my drinking and grinding days. Long story short it is weird when I do get stressed, but luckily I can self-talk myself through it. Be quick but don't hurry is a phrase I often say. Work hard and stay focused is also what I say as well. More often than not I have to tell myself that stress is positive. I am not saying like stressed out to the max, but a manageable amount of stress where I am doing positive actions is a good thing.

Goals and other stuff. I always write out that I want to make 6 figures one time in my life. I would be happy if I made 50,000k because you have to walk before you can run.

I always want to build and explore my relationships with my friends. I am not talking sexually you pervs. I feel like I am aware how much inspiration I get from my friends and how I learn from them. A huge step in my development was actually thinking of someone else and gathering myself before I hang out with my roomate. I always strive to be patient, understanding, caring, respectful, tolerant. I hate it when I think I know what is best for someone. People have their own journeys and whatever people do is their business. No one ever changes from my suggestions anyway.