Sometimes you need a trip to wal-mart

Sometimes praying for gratitude isn't enough. You have to take a trip to wal-mart. I have to see and smell the people who are really fat, and really drink a ton. I have to see and smell these people to get a deep understanding that I don't have things that bad. You know these people just let themselves go always taking the easy way out. I know with fitness, diet, work, whatever...that there is no short cuts. Day in and day out I am willing to go through the pain to get better. I am looking forward to the challenge of the new job at work. I know what it takes to humble myself and to enjoy the process. I am really thinking about the normal person doesn't know what it's like to be hungry or to sacrifice to lose a pound here or there. It is grueling, but for the health and the deep character building I do it. When I get rejected by a girl, it is less painful than when I am done eating, but not satisfied and I force myself to work on a project to get through the time that I want to eat rice crispy treats until I satisfied. A dude just starting out in the weight loss game has to put up with so much grief. I remember beating myself up every day even when I was executing a diet with exercise. I felt like crap because the results weren't there. The real results are internal. You character build and you figure out what works for you. The progress is so slow you think there is no hope for you. That is why you just have to do it day in and day out and enjoy the process. I make affirmation statements like. "I am going to be patience with myself. There are changes going on with me so slow, I can't see them, I am doing this because I love the progress of growth and I love the character building it brings me."


Anyway. I am trying to get through the book. "Mastery" by Robert Greene and the book 7 Effective Habits by Steven Covey. Both of which I have been putting time and effort into. Both the books make me think. They also make me think of how much time I have on this earth and that I better practice patience and love as much as possible because I need to grow that shit!

Basically my day right now consists of me getting up. Praying on my knees. The heading to the gym. I am a bit nervous every day but I bare with it because it goes away. I try to thank God for the energy to go to the gym. I see fat people every day and I think that God has blessed me with the nervous energy to go to the gym. I don't mean to be mean, I just think I have a gift of not liking the way I look. It is a gift and it's rewards is that it makes me go to the gym and walk. Then halfway through my walk I loosen up and start feeling good. Endorphens, muscles relax, the thoughts that "Hey dude...you are productive as hell" start going through my mind.