8/26

Yesterday I went to work. It was o.k. I am 17th at work with 5 more days in the month. I am on track to bonus this month which makes me feel good. Thank God I am not in the Red and I don't have to go to work everyday and worry about getting "The Talk" from managers. I try to be cool and help people. Sometimes I get bored at work, but I have note book to write down, I have an 8 pound weight to do some wrist curls, I can keep busy.

Andrea started meditation classes. This is huge because I remember listening to Barry Long's album "Stop Thinking Now" It really hit home for me because my thinking and the way I coped with my own thinking really was making me sad and miserable. I have developed 4 years of ways of coping with my thinking.

I have been going for a bit more walks as of late. It really is fun for me. It is fun for me to listen to music, play video games, or text while walking. It makes me feel productive and entertained. It also gives me hope that the days are getting more awesome and not less awesome. Even if that is not true, the fact that I can feel like my life is getting more awesome is the main thing. I just want to feel good and entertained. If I can feel good and entertained in the moment I am pretty cool.