Friday and the weekend.

Friday I got to talk to one of my comedian friends. She is a machine gun of opinions and of randomness. It was a breathe of fresh air to have someone just shout out as many random things as possible and I got a hardy laugh at some of it. Friday I was pretty warn out. I haven't been selling at work and I will reach out to a supervisor and ask what can I do to get better. I have been through this before a million times, lots of times when I was flunking a class and I needed to pull out a C. So I am o.k. with that because I am putting in thoughts and actions how to get better. Saturday I woke up and just was pretty lame from the week of work. I put together some things and Andrea came over to pack for camping. I was grateful I had put in so much work preparing for camping. I studied how to change tires, I had a map where we were going, I put on Sunscreen. I knew from being a Cub Scout how much to be ready. The end event is I am sitting here today with little to no bug bites, not sunburn, I have my cell phone, jeep, and the tent was not peed into once!

Camping..camping was a bit rough for me because I had been involved in a long week of work. I put together all I could to prepare for the camping trip. I was ready to sit on my but and pound diet cokes until I took a nap. We got there and Andrea wanted to move the food by the other food and she wanted to swim and do other things. I was like...the whole point of camping is to do nothing. To her credit she let me relax a bit until I got bored and then we went swimming. As a joke I slathered myself in sunscreen and we swam out and enjoyed the lake. The beach had a float rope around it and we were resting our arms on it enjoying the view. We swam back and watched some of our friends play volleyball. Cody, Peter, and Christian were the main people I knew from the event. They are hard core members of sobriety. Cody has been friend through sobriety and we can always talk about everything. Sarah his girlfriend is funny and I have known her for 4 years. Anyway I was hungry and we went over and this White Trash guy in a large truck and a camper starts cussing us out. It was a long story, but he went on his way. We ate and the food was delicious. The sun went down and we talked about sobriety and it was pretty magical with the stars and reflection on how I could be partying and not asking for help all the time and making people around me miserable, instead I have been dropping my ego asking for help and even though it doesn't go so well I know I am doing better than some out there.

I woke up at 3:30 am camping and I could feel that it was going to rain hard. We packed up our stuff and we left. It was a good idea. We got back to lenexa safe and I took a shower. The post camp shower was nothing short of glorious.