having emotions but doing the right thing.

So often as men I really have to focus on going through crap but still finding a way to do the right thing. If I get a flat tire I might be pissed and tire but I have to make sure I do the work the right way and so I only have to do it once.

Yesterday was a bit of a ride but I am grateful that it happened. I was still dizzy all day, but I was able to do a load of laundry and get my hair cut. I really tried to take in a bunch of water I didn't work out because I guess that is dangerous at this point in time. I went out with my friend Liesel. She was very friendly and I always enjoy her company. I am in the friend-zone with her, but that is ok with me because well that is the only option I have is to have peace with that. I met another girl out and it seemed to go well at first, then a dude came in that was friends with them and he hogged all attention of the girls. I stopped having fun for a bit and I made the mistake of hanging around a bit too long. I should have left the instant that this guy was going to make it clean that I wasn't going to be able to talk to or interact with the girl I like, oh well lesson learned. I did get up and leave and I felt I was being pretty classy even though the girl and this guy weren't giving me much respect. So now is pretty much when I will take right action.

-The girl didn't seem to have much interest in me and was rude. She has my number and she can call or text if she wants to see me again. I know from experience that the wrong thing would be to text or today to see her again or come off as being needy. I put my best foot forward by having my haircut, being classy and charming, and getting out of there as best as I could. Overall if she doesn't get back at me she is doing me a favor because I got enough talking skills to move on to the next one. I have have to put up with the emotional sting for a bit. The reason why it stings for a bit is because she did seem rad and she did seem interested, so it not a pleasant feeling wrapping up my day yesterday. I am thankful though I can do better with my emotions so I can do some damage control on situations and not make things worse. I feel like I am being way to honest on here today, but I want to grow in not needing validation from woman/job/society. So I am doing my best to hammer home a decent plan on growth.